I've always struggled with weight. Always. Seriously. I come out of the womb as a healthy size 16. Okay, maybe not so chunky. But, weight has always been an issue. Not a day has gone by that I can honestly tell you that I haven't thought about "it". Some parts of my life allowed my inner most being to actually care, but the majority of the time, I did.not.have.the.willpower. I almost let the sentiments of my grandmother get me through the years. You know the one..."Well, she may be bigg-uhhh, but she's beautiful." BTW, "bigg-uhhh" equals to bigger in case you aren't familiar with southern twang.
Let me tell you something funny. Beautiful isn't seen through the hands of an elderly blind lady my grandmother took me to visit at the age of 13. She shook my hand and screeched out, very similar to the old lady in Drag Me to Hell (yeah I watched it...), "Ohhhhhh we got us a big one hereeeeeee." Really?! If I didn't have the joy of the Lord in my heart even then, I'd probably have slapped her straight off her walker. But alas, I did not. It hurt...it hurt realllllllll deep. So, this one's for you old lady. Not really...
So, I've always been an open book about everything in my life. So, that's why I've created a space...just for this. "This" is my exposed goodness. An exposed goodness that has come to fruition because of having clarity. Finally. Thank you Lord. I prayed for this...prayed for Him to allow ME to HAVE that clarity, focus, and motivation. I give Him all the praise.
So, week 1's exposed goodness=MINUS 11 LBS.
True story. Awesome right? 85% of me doesn't want to share this because I don't want to be looked at as a bragger in any way. And, for those who are like me so many times in life are at a place of defeat, unmotivationalness (made up word), and at a high risk to cut someone that updates their Facebook status with "3 miles ran today...yeahhhhhh!", I UNDERSTAND. Because the other 15% of me doesn't want to blog about this because I'm afraid of failing. Again. But, guess what...I'm TRYING. We can all TRY. If 1st you don't succeed...yada, yada, yada.
As much of an open book as I am, I won't share my weight...just yet. I will one day. But not now.
Also, different methods work for different people. This is my mode of defense...a program I did for a month last year, but quit because of 3 some-what valid excuses (LOL) such as upcoming cruise, 1st time EVER experiencing constipation (yeah I'm an open book...and I can say I honestly thought I was dying...), etc.
Check Medi out at Lee OB in Auburn...I simply can not say enough good things about the ladies there that are motivating me, calling me baby, & screaming with me in the revelation of ELEVEN STUPID IDIOTIC pounds gone! ;)
It's expensive, but guess what else is? Gourmet cupcakes, cheesecake, icecream, meals here, meals there...
https://www.mediweightlossclinics.com/
Here's to more exposed goodness,
Crystal <3
Do it Girl! I'm behind you 100%! You just be happy with who God made you, and you'll see the weight start fall off. When should I call and book our zip-line?
ReplyDeleteThank you Cas!! Let's plan on next summer. LOL!! :)
ReplyDeleteMy unmotivationalness is motivated by your openness. And I adore the name of this blog. It sounds like a real blog. As in famous. So I'll be able to say, "I know her when..." You can do this, and I'll stop sending you pics of milanos. hehe....
ReplyDeleteAwwww...yay!! I wish it would become famous, make lots of money like that Julia Child-loving woman, then I would be over the moon! And, I don't mind the cookie pictures. I actually have NO desire for them. Well at least not today. LOL! :)
ReplyDeleteCrystal, all I can say is wow. From one big girl to another, amazing! You truly almost had me in tears. I have always felt the same. Struggling with my weight every day. Being remorseful of anything I eat all the time. I certainly am glad that I have the ability to stay in contact with you now. You are a great motivator and one of the most beautiful wonderful women that I know!! I did LA weight loss several years ago. I was at almost 300lbs. I have sedentary job and had become comfortable in my work and relationship, and honestly lazy too. I had zero motivation. I had always heard, "you can't help someone that doesn't want to help themselves" and that's how it is for losing weight. I never lost any weight bc frankly at the time I guess I wasn't motivated enough to. Then I joined LA weight loss. They taught me how to eat better and did a simple walk away the pounds DVD almost every day that was only 30mins. I am not athelstan, never claimed to be, and I loathe working out. But eventually after about a year I lost 90lbs. I managed to keep it off until about last year in my third semester of nursing school. I started taking an antidepressant for anxiety. I stopped that real quick bc I gained 30lbs! Now I have gained about 40lbs from my lowest weight. I can't wear any of my fancy expensive Silver, brand new lol bc they were on clearance, so now I am shooting to 1) loose this extra 40, then 2) maybe about another 40. I loved reading this blog and I hope that it help motivate me. LA no longer has an office here, and it's online now which sucks bc the girls there held you accountable. It's harder to lie about your weight when the girl is looking at the scale and your food journal lol. Best of luck to you girlfriend!!!!!!!
ReplyDeleteProud of you Sis!!!!! Love you!!!
ReplyDeleteAwww Brianne, you made ME cry. It is hard. The hardest struggle I've ever had. And for many that don't know the battle, it's even more difficult explaining the feelings that we do have. It's not easy, but I know it's not supposed to be! So, I hope your journey is a healthy one my friend and I'm going to check in here every Friday with an update to keep myself accountable as well. You're beautiful! Love you!
ReplyDeleteJenn, I love you!!! Thank You!!
So excited! I have recently gained several several pounds due to cortisone\steroid shots to help pain from a wreck.....well several pounds later im in tears over my weight. I get looks from coworkers and have people tell me i dont need to eat what i just put in my mouth...it is tough. My exercise is limited and i feel lost. Doctor said it might come off after shots wear off. I considered medifast myself. I truly am at a loss. Love the blog Crystal. Love ya Marianne
ReplyDeleteThank you sweet Marianne!! I pray you find what works for you too. <3
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